Epoch 1 - Journey 1 - Cycle 3 - Day 40 - being present with my loneliness

We are all so lonely - this is about being present with our inner grand canyon of loneliness

Danny Skyfeather

9/13/20262 min read

Aum Love Now - Day 40, Cycle 3, Journey 1, Epoch 1 - We are not alone in our loneliness

Danny Skyfeather here. Arriving in this present moment in the name of Love. This is day 40 of cycle 3, journey 1, epoch 1 of Aum Love Now. I want to be very clear about something. Although this work came through me, I in no shape, manner, or form have mastered any of it. In truth, I am a maladapted, extremely lonely human being.

I don't feel like I fit into this world. The planet, yes. This world, no. I'm so fucking lonely that it's just intolerable. Whoever is reading these words from any time or place, I just want you to know that I love you. And I reach my hand through the invisible veil that separates us with the honor of shaking your hand, of connecting with you.

Aum Love Now is a space of spiritual connection between human beings across time and space. And this human has nothing figured out except this. Just one more breath, one more round of repetitions, one more day. This is day 40. Who else out there, regardless of cycle or journey or epoch, who out there is on day 40?

Are you there?

Here?

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I would like to say just a few more things about what I'm talking about.

This loneliness in me is really beyond description.

It feels more like annihilation, or annihilating loneliness, where I simply cease to exist. It feels like I could just walk, walk over to the edge and look into that chasm, but I can't because I've built up incredible defense around this core of loneliness in me.

Surrounding it is a moat of red-hot anger. Don't you fucking dare get close to me and see in me what I can't see in myself, or see in me.

I don't want anyone to see this, and most people just bury it. I know, I know how to bury it.

I know how to bury it.

What I don't know how to do is to feel it, but I'm learning to be cautious and loving with myself, gentle and kind with the anger, wrapping the whole system of mine in the energy of love, and then letting the divine do what it does best.